Artist’s description piece

Ilene Kay Jewelry

I am an Artist of the Natural World infused with an Asian Influence. I am fascinated by the diverse patterns on leaves, rocks, trees, flowers and moving water working with the play of light in nature. Throughout the course of the day I often stop to sketch, or pick up a stone, a piece of bark just as I did as a young child when I would bring these treasures home. Now as an adult, when I start to design – I’ll look to these “treasures” for inspiration and try to convey the childlike awe and the beauty I see in them to others. In addition, my artwork has an Asian influence resulting from the artwork my parents had in our home when I was growing up. The mixture of the natural world and an Asian sway gives my art a vitality and character that is totally unique.

The creation of art begins for me as a journey in to the playful part of myself. My sketches of landscapes, trees, flowers, water. Light and shadow are transformed into basic shapes representing different aspects of the elements, – these shapes are the beginning of my jewelry designs. I strive to remain open to the creative process and allow time for the design to develop. Often my sketches sit unused for many weeks until I am ready to develop them in to working drawings. To a casual observer, my work would immediately convey a naturalistic nuance with an Asian infusion. My work is original, eye-catching and infused with a Zen-like love of the natural world that makes me mindful of the beauty of the elements that surround me. My view of the world is embodied in my artwork.

The creation of art begins with my sketches of landscapes, trees, flowers, and water. The flow of the light and show are minimized into to basic shapes. These shapes are the beginning of my jewelry designs. So my first job as an artist is to “observe” and take my outdoor surroundings. In the second phase of the process I look for flowing lines, interesting shapes and colors that appeal to the eye. I work in Argentium Silver, Gold, heat colored Titanium and Copper to create Art Jewelry using traditional fabrication metalsmithing techniques. Basically, I saw, texture, hammer, and form the metal with hand tools. The directness of forging metal in this manner makes each piece of my jewelry unique. No two pieces of my jewelry are alike and each piece has a story to tell.

I have a degree in art from the University of Central Oklahoma in Edmond, Oklahoma. I have also completed intensive study in metalsmithing, jewelry design, enameling and metal sculpture. The designers I have worked with include the following:


Jurgen Maerz: Master Goldsmith – Stone setting and metalsmithing skills

Ronda Coryell: Master Goldsmith – Argentium Silver fabrication and fusing

Steve Kriechbaum: Designer Goldsmith – Stone setting and metalsmithing skills

Patsy Croft: Cloisonné Jewelry Designer – Cloisonné enamel and Plique a Jour techniques

Linda Darty: Metalsmith, Enamelist – Cloisonné enamel techniques


My husband, Gordon and I live in North Carolina with our two dogs Bob and Blue.



The Benefits of Meditation

The Benefits of Meditation

Meditation has beneficial effects on a variety of mental and physical factors, including a reduction in anxiety disorders as well as immune and digestive system disturbances. It is well-known that meditation can bring anxiety under control; the typical “fight or flight” response is mediated greatly by settling down, at least once a day, and repeating a mantra over and over or just concentrating on simple breathing, trying to let go of all extraneous thoughts and concerns. If a thought does interfere or become bothersome, repeated practice of mindful meditation or progressive relaxation of each muscle of the body brings relaxation and a sense of well-being.   In addition, meditation has been helpful for patients with asthma, ADHD, hypertension and drug abuse.

John Cabot Zinn, the father of mindful meditation, claims that anytime one can transcend the worries of everyday stresses, control can be achieved. Much of this calm and control can be attributed to the fact that mediation literally changes the brain. The stress hormone, cortisol, is dramatically reduced during meditation and regular practice of deep breathing exercises lowers the heart rate and blood pressure. Dr. Jane Fleming had this to say:

‘In survival mode, heart rate rises and blood pressure shoots up. Meanwhile muscles, preparing for danger, contract and tighten. And non-essential functions such as immunity and digestion go by the wayside.” Relaxation, on the other hand, is a state of rest, enjoyment and physical renewal. Free of danger, muscles can relax and food can be digested. The heart can slow and blood circulation flows freely to the body’s tissues, feeding it with nutrients and oxygen. This restful state is good for fertility, as the body is able to conserve the resources it needs to generate new life.

Therefore, meditation renews life, in other words, all bodily systems work better and if healing is needed anywhere in the body, meditation facilitates the regeneration of body and mind by switching off the stress response.

Marijuana and Memory

Marijuana and Memory


The illegal and legal use of marijuana is widespread, and for millions of people

all over the world, it is their recreational drug of choice. Marijuana is by far the

most widely available street drug and the compound of THC in cannabis

reportedly causes pleasure and euphoria among users. Although marijuana use

is most popular among teenagers and young adults, usage among older adults is

prevalent well into middle age. This is especially true with medical marijuana,

which is now legal in twenty states and is used widely for relief of pain, control of

epilepsy, help with nausea for chemotherapy in cancer patients, and a whole

host of other ailments. But how dangerous is marijuana and what effects does it

have on memory and basic functioning? Does marijuana irrevocably damage the

maturing brain in young people and act as a precursor for psychotic behavior and

conditions such as schizophrenia? Does marijuana affect I.Q.? And finally, does

the widespread legality of marijuana and ensuing problems with perception and

memory lead to reckless behavior, with disregard for physical and mental health,

especially leading to irresponsible and dangerous driving behind the wheel?


The scope of this analysis will focus on marijuana’s implications for memory

and cognitive abilities including IQ and the predilection for chronic disease such

as schizophrenia, the harm that marijuana has on development of the

development of adolescent brains and the social ramifications of that harm, and

finally, with the advent of medical marijuana, how cognitive deficits affect driving

and performing simple tasks, i.e., the long term implications for marijuana use.

The research is conclusive when it comes to cognitive difficulties with

marijuana, it does impair memory, especially working memory or short-term

memory. Working memory is responsible for managing immediate and current

information used for reasoning, perception, and comprehension. Short-term

memory affects verbal intelligence, reaction time and the completion of tasks

simultaneously or multi-tasking (Smith, Longo, Fried, Hogan, Matthew, &

Cameron, 2010). Using science in layman’s terms, marijuana negatively affects

memory by attacking neurons related to memory in the brain, causing them to

collapse and shrink thus causing disability.


Marijuana usage affects the frontal lobe of the brain, which affects making

decisions and solving problems and in turn causes attention and response

difficulties. The research used MRI technology to monitor blood flow to the

affected areas. Cannabis use, in short, decreases overall mental flexibility. Two

distinctions are important here, first, the age in which the individual started

smoking marijuana was an important factor, and second, how much marijuana is

smoked per week. In most studies, the targets studied were primarily heavy

users of cannabis with some exceptions. By far, the overwhelming opinion was

that the younger use or abuse was started, the worse the memory and related

cognitive problems.


Regarding marijuana affecting overall I.Q the research is mixed, but mostly

erring on the side that cannabis does affect I.Q. negatively as far as testing and

performance goes. This is because cannabis users often do poorly on the

memory and verbal sections of an I.Q. test. Long-range studies have shown that

individuals who used cannabis from an early age saw a downward spiral in I.Q.

scores for a period of twenty-five years. This trend was true even for those

individuals who has stopped smoking cannabis years before. Scientists say

cannabis use permanently weakens the network of specific memory brain

neurons and causes them to collapse on themselves, causing cognitive

problems. Many researchers hold that short-term memory loss as well as other

cognitive difficulties, directly affects intelligence (Dougherty, Mathias, Dawes,

Furr, Liguori, Shannon & Acheson 2013). The latter researchers believe that I.Q.

is at risk because the ability of the mind to properly assign importance to life’s

events and to memorize items and numbers in a sequence directly affects the

ability to solve problems. And this is true with both verbal problems and

numerical problems. Of course, whether this problem is short term, and goes

away with discontinued use of cannabis is an area for further study. One

important component of measuring intelligence is the age at which a given

individual started using cannabis. The earlier an individual used the drug, the

more pronounced the memory loss and motor function is (Hanson, Lucian 2010).

Low I.Q. has huge ramifications on a young person’s self esteem and affects

performance in school, performance in a job as well as future job choice and

success, the hallmarks of a young person’s future.


Another topic under discussion in the research is whether marijuana use and

the resulting loss of memory, perception, and motor function among young teens

can go a step further and precipitate mental illness, including psychotic disorders

such as schizophrenia. In short, can marijuana permanently damage the brain?

Schizophrenia usually strikes younger people and because a disproportionate

number of people with Schizophrenia have and continue to smoke marijuana,

corresponding studies have been made. The literature is divided as to whether

there is already a genetic factor present that could cause mental illness or if

marijuana itself causes the break in mental functioning (Balderston, Rhea, &

Crockford, 2014). There is similar brain activity in people with schizophrenia and

those with chronic marijuana abuse, and schizophrenia shares many of the same

tenants of marijuana use, loss of short-term memory, attention problems,

problem-solving difficulties and reaction time (Stern, 2014). The results most

often conclude that underlying illness factors and genetics were present prior to

marijuana use, but that cannabis use, with this particular affliction, makes the

symptoms worse (Malchow, Hasan, Fusar-Poli, Schmitt, Failai, & Wobrock

2014). The debate on this topic is still ongoing.


The final issue concerns how marijuana use affects society as a whole. With

the proliferation of medical marijuana, legal now in twenty states and totally legal

in two, Washington and Colorado, and the fact that marijuana usage grows

exponentially every year, there are dire consequences concerning health, and

specifically on reckless driving behind the wheel. The fact that medical

marijuana is more powerful now because of plant manipulation is troubling. The

diminishment of short-term memory and impaired judgment, poor decision

making, decreased motor function and planning that cannabis users demonstrate

in test after test lead to high risk behaviors that aren’t rational, and have huge

implications on mental and physical health. Surprisingly, smoking a marijuana

cigarette is ten times more damaging to the lungs than smoking one tobacco

cigarette and chronic use can cause lung cancer. And despite large-scale drug

prevention campaigns that start in grade school, the use of marijuana has not

decreased. Marijuana users show little concern for the potential dangers of

marijuana and only describe the positive effects of the drug (Alfonso & Dunn,

2007). In other words most users do not think of the future and possible dangers

of the drug.


Besides lack of concern regarding physical or mental health, individuals under

the influence of marijuana take part in dangerous sexual behavior, have poor

performance in school with a growing drop out rate (the batteries of tests telling

students they are “less than” don’t help), and tend to drive recklessly, having

trouble changing lanes and braking at an appropriate time, endangering both

themselves and others. There are serious, potential life-threatening problems

when individuals drive under the influence of marijuana. The poor spatial

memory, lack of flexibility, lack of movement coordination, lack of good motor

function, and poor reaction time, leads to accidents and driving poorly because of

poor coordination (Penning, Veldstra, Daamen, Oliver, & Verster 2010).

Marijuana does indeed cause short-term memory deficits and an array of

cognitive deficits as well. Marijuana use also negatively affects I.Q and test

taking in the areas of short-term memory and perception. In addition, marijuana

complicates the issue of further mental illness, and brain development. Finally,

marijuana use causes individuals to exhibit risky behavior, disregarding mental

and physical health. The latter point especially predicts poor driving performance

and places individuals, under the influence of marijuana, in serious danger of

having or causing traffic accidents. A question this study invites is whether the

discontinuation of marijuana use stops the short-term memory deprivation,

perception difficulties, and cognitive deficits so common in users of cannabis.

Many researchers say memory loss is permanent and I.Q. loss is persistently

lower than with individuals who have never used marijuana. No matter what the

further studies of the permanence of marijuana use prove, the fact that marijuana

usage, especially with chronic use and individuals beginning at an early age, is a

deterrent to the maturation of young minds and causes serious memory and

perception problems that seriously affect a young person’s array of choices for the future.

The Two Selves

The Two Selves


Visible in her yellow Houdini eyes

the blue sky is in splinters,

In this precarious geology of mind and mortal wounds

she possesses two minds,

everything had bled out to.

Discarded skin,

feeling multiple,

thirsty as a fossil.


One ancient like a knight flailing his weapons in battle,

in a heartbroken waltz.

Or a little girl just walking through the sunflowers,

impasto and chiaroscuro,

that twist and intertwine,

both a flesh arpeggio

unfolding like a sea anemone.


The knight wants to pierce all injuries

When the light falters and the fog rolls in.

His Poisonous gifts

of murky gutturals,

the white knife of a smile,

chewing up a mad scene

like a bad actor in a horror movie.

He is a verb refusing to yield,

aiming words like soft bullets.

Touch him and he will burn you.


The singing girl is softer,

has a translucent smile you can swim in,

composed of hope and wishful thinking,

as branches unroll their yellow caterpillars,

and a softness like marrow cells

whose language has eaten all others.

will envelop you.

Touch her and she will heal you.


The two selves are a granular pink quartz,

a glowing rock formation,

its igneous veins reaching ever forward.

A body full of juicy adjectives,

and an ache like history.


Touch her and she will know you.


RM Feb 2019

Family Photo, Then and Now

Family Photo, then and now


The faces of my family look happy and calm

Bending and folding the light,

time curving the wind,

rusting in our tissue paper faces,

our fissures hidden in blown up flesh.


In my memory, there is never one of any of us,

I don’t look back along time but down through it, like water.

Sometimes one thing comes to the surface and sometimes another.

The picture is early evening,

One of those watercolor washes the city comes up with in fall,

Velvety and cool, like the muzzles of dogs.


My mother is very pale, like a body under a bathing suit,

Her touch glows on my shoulder like a burnt out match.

I smell my father, his fuggy leather, underneath smell I used to love,

Tall and avuncular.

My sister looks oddly flat,

like she was squeezed out of one those old fashioned wringers

and pressed like a flower in a book.


I look lighter, as if I am shedding matter,

losing molecules,

leaching calcium from my bones

and cells from my blood.

I flare up in an obliterary silence.

dissolving like a thinning mist into

a vast empty space.

I must have been running away.


We are all as ephemeral as insect wings

Yet stuck with dull weight of being human,

A paradox in the glimmering air,

All our pasts touched by many pasts.


The trick of the light in the past tense

marking time, taut in the protective coating the camera

has lent to all of us,

one that can never last.

This picture colors the air I move in now.

Clouds of breath formed into words,

Smile now.


But we are hiding in the light,

disquise is always easier when we are young.

and slippery forgiveness,

that sideways step out of my own body,

out of time into another time,

has cleaned up all the biographies.


Finally we look like mortality has a hook in all of us,

everything hovering on the verge of becoming real.

Heartbite after heartbite,

feeding on what is missing.

Anything to mummify ourselves,

to stop the drip-drip of time.


After all,

time has stopped,

for just a moment,

and refused to let us go.


RM Jan 2019